Welcome back, Noni1974! I offer my condolences on the death of your Mom, and I think I understand your response to it, because I had a similar response when my mother died a few years back.
I had long ago "disfellowshipped" my mother because that is what her cult taught me to do. I have two brothers who are still JW and firmly into mom-ism as well, and they thought I was a horrible person, so they didn't tell me when she died. I found out when a JW friend from my youth emailed me his sympathies. About my mom I was like, ">YAWN< What's for breakfast?" I was more bothered by my brothers' treatment of me than my mother's lack of life.
So, Noni1974, what else have you been up to the past decade?